posers

I have smeared my honour ..
As the golden crown that is my dignity was tarnished that day
I realised nothing was ever to be the same ..
I bled myself and the would cuts deep ...
The honour to call you my brothers ... I have lost ..
The fight with the demons within .. I have lost ..
Given in to temptations ... given in to what I knew was wrong
The horrors I battle in my head each day ...
Your meager earth bound problems mean nothing ...
Your little cries and pleas for good luck ..
What is luck but not a figment of imagination
The truth is our honour was never ours alone ..
It never has been ...
It instead has always been the belonging of those who loved us..
And I foolishly corrupted it ...
Like a blinded general not listening to his troops and charging straight into
Certain death ....
No more voices call out to me .. I am all alone ..
The world start caving in .. and I am at the eye of the vortex
All alone ... all broken...
You write fantasies of a dark post apocalyptic world you do not know or understand
So go ahead and lead your stupid barbie doll lives .. and conform to the communistic regime
For you romanticised the worst feeling of all ..
Helplessness...
A feeling that hangs heavily on my shoulders ..
The truth is hidden within the lines... and you will never see me in the same light again ...

to recite as the coffin closes

A mistake ...
Our namesake ..
The future seems to be ripped away at the very fabric of an emotion gone astray
Taken by surprise
As I open pandora's box ..
Peeking to see It's treasures ,
Needless to say the darkness over took me and I could not shut it in time ..
The ailments rampaged my body
as I was forced to pay literally and metaphorically
For my sins ...
It seemed so wrong and I knew it ...
She was so corrupt and I knew it ...
Like the emotional tilt one experiences after a bad beat in poker
I walked as a soulless body ... I knew not of reason but only of purpose ..
My purpose from that day on changed ...
As an inferno flame burns hay ... the events were irreversible ....
The life I knew had changed ... the truth I thought had escaped me ...
5 times over 10 times to go .. or I shall take my sins and shame to the grave
No one need know .. no one needs to bear my burden ...
So each day as I strive forward I race towards my grave .. but I will die knowing
I lived a good life .. I fought the good fight ...
Pray for me ... as I turn to god in my darkest hours ...
The one thing I regretted in this life thus far ...
"In order to banish lust from oneself ... one must hate it as much as god does "
Pray for me my brothers
Pray for me my friends ....
Keep my secret ...
To the grave may it be told ......

the inevitable must not be prevented

Clouds of turmoil the swirl above me ..
The air choked of the thousands of rotting souls..
The days of glory ended ..
War broke out and missiles flew .. and as the drew
Across the once blue sky .. the earth beneath it died away ..
No one on the ground survived the apocalypse ...
A band of brothers took to the skies .. immortal angels who soon took flight
Lift off the toxic earth and cower the skies in an airship soo high above
Flintlock pistols and naval canons ... white sails on helium balloons ...
Floating above the carcass which once were our lands
Wait the captain stirs as he descends his ship through the crowd
A mysterious movement so fast and agile ... he looks through his crack looking glass
A black raven circling beneath him .....
He descends lower and lower
Little did he know this would be the last he would see of his ship ever again .

someone out there for me .

It's in the middle of the night
People running , trying to fight ...
No words can express .. the feeling of losing deep down inside
I feel that no one understands me .. I watch as time swing before me
I almost breakdown and cry .....
I perch alone on this darkwood tree .. falcon of the dark
All the lands below me look up and know they fear me ...
Buy I feel so lonely and cold inside ....
I wait awhile obsessed with the blood lust ... I cannot find I cannot fight
.. so as the moons pass above me and the critters they call out to me .
They can't seem to understand how I bleed out inside ..
So I wait until my talons give way for the raven to come save my life
A bird of prey .. another one just like me .. if you're out there please hear my cries
Oh no ....
And then the blood lust it eats and comrades me ... I fall from so waay up high ..
As the shattered heart begins to heal all the bones in the flesh are no longer real
And the fog lifts .. I was just wasting my time ...